What is art? seriously...

Lookie!! haha Miko and i got caught by these work of art as we were heading to esplanade library to study..and took lots of pictures..and as for those whose art are not shown here..don't worry it is not that it is not nice or anything but i can't possibly take all and paste it here!! copyright..lol so to the people out there!! you should go to esplanade and see!! if you wanna see the rest of the art work!! it is really good!! loads of imagination and stuff..
did you notice that there is a picture of a 'crab'..in all those stuff..i took that intentionally cause baby said that he had a dream of catching big crabs!! yup..so, in relation to his dream, i photographed that big 'crab'.

oh!! i really like this box!! nice right!!
side view
Another box.
wowow!!!
Another box..
haha and there were lots of 'little people'
a..how do you describe this guy? as in what is his profession?
this 3 are super cute!!
And what the heck is this!! art?? dots. i dont see any innovation whatever whoever the person who creates this. it doesn't speak of how you came about to this display..it is like a copy and paste from some drain!!! it only shows that you can really..copy and paste if this is the skill you are showing..

tadah!!!

hey look at this!!ok i know that i dont have all the photos to really make an accurate picture or view to you people out there what army is really like but this is all i have haha.. take a look at it!!

Study or not to Study?

of course i did lah!!
im a goodie girl!! haha..no lah no to that extreme of studying full speed if not wont have energy to stay on the entire sem..must study and play in moderation..understand?


and lookie!! miko and i!! wanna join us study?? haha..

Mid term break!

you know im really thankful that there is even such a thing as mid term break. really gives me a breather time. to relax..slowly catch up with things. im now not ing a chionging mood for studying..just little bit at a time. wait till exams. as for now, i'll try clear up my work so that come next break which is of course the exams..i won't have much work to do. i think. haha..well!! i went shopping with miko today at bugis. saw this really nice wallet really pretty!!!in my own way.. and bag!!! which i think it is pretty classy..haha still thinking if i should get it or not. should i?? but in the end i didnt get them. still should i get that bag? i mean it was hanging there with all the bags and it kinda jump out on me!! you know what i mean.. oh yar!!there was this really sincere chinese shop keeper at bugis street who sells bag at half price like 20 bucks and the quality is pretty good!! with quite a few varieties too!! cause he is leaving soon..don't really know the details..so if you wanna get bags do head there!! eh somewhere in bugis street..haha on ground level. also very hard to describe where actually cause it is like a maze down there!!! hmm...

oh and i drank oat milk today!! haven't been drinking milk for a long time!! think tml i will drink milk again. and also i do recommend you people to eat Oreo wafersticks. it taste pretty yummy!!

haha aand come friday i'll be going for Red bull interview. wish me luck!! should i get the that bag??

my 20th birthday

is a bit late but..as promised the slideshow.

happy birthday jeanette.!

happy birthday jeanette!



you know what?

i think it is about time that i blog about my birthday!! haha but a slideshow will just do the trick..haha..anyway i was feeling really uneasy for this week until 2 days ago. have this weird feeling that everything in my body is like not functioning well, and rather losing control..not really saying that i was trembling non-stop but it was a minor uncomfortableness..and then i felt like exploding in my head..but the weirdest thing is that it was the explosion of silence.



you are thinking "What?" right?

i mean how can silence explode? hmm...well, maybe we shouldn't think of silence as nothing..but have you heard the term of like..silent scream? so the explosion of silence should be the explosion of things you didn't voice earlier and the voice just gets pressured in until when your body can bear it no more. hidden with your breath. understand? hmm.. ok let me illustrate. when you feel like crying, being touched by a scene in a movie, have you thought of controlling your tears? and you breathe shallowly and shortly just to push back down the tears. yup. so that is what i mean by voice being buried by breath.



eh, so did i explode? hmm..i did. after a few days. it was really hard to bear. oh and only iz knew about it. he is kinda like my mentor now. to me at least. the rest would only hear me say that im really stress..but it is not school work really..and after all of it- out pouring of emotions?, i felt light. hmm..must be that deep breathing exercise i made myself do..i think. haha..

i miss you

i miss you, i really do.
screw the readings i have to do..screw all the rushing. i'd it. rush to eat, rush to sleep, rush to rise up, rush to school, rush to class, rush to go out, rush to return home, rush to bathe, rush to spend time with friends, rush the through school work, rush for bbq, rush for craft, rush to clean up!
and i forgot to spend time with myself. rushing..rushing to blog. rushing to have fun..sounds ridiculous. doesn't it?
and i forgot to settle down my heart. forgot to take in the experience. forgot to enjoy the taste of a simple milk that would give me stomache, to be still.
Being still is really important. gives you the time to take in what is around you and be able to cherish them. cherishing gives meaning to life. people always say how to live live meaningful? Cherish. Cherish makes it meaningful. not the activities you glance through everyday in your life! not the people you spend with! it is only when you cherish.
i use to think that by adding more events and spending time with people makes life more meaningful. but i realize that i was wrong. partial truth is no truth at all. Cherishing makes it complete. Cherishing the time you all hear all the time. what about cherising the taste of food? the breath of life? the light of life?

actually, i wanted to name the title 你是坏人. But i've realize something that i have been missing out! and i've only realized it when i stepped into my room and finds that everything stops. cherishing. so i changed the title. i guess i have been doing the doing too much until i don't really miss baby that much le. not because i don't love him as much but because i made myself too busy. gave myself too much expectation and at the end of it all, the result lets see..你是坏人?haha..though he meant it jokingly, but i must say the phrase is kicking in to my mental health le which i have to admit-it is pretty worn out. hah. starting to get brainwash. for a moment, i found myself starting to believe it seriously..to believe in it. and i really wanted to blog about this. to remind myself of the decision i made. that between jokin and my mental health i picked to protect my mental health. and by doing this, i know that we now have one less thing to joke about. one popular joke less to joke about. but you know, if only jokes are on the positive side..

expectations. i've learn something about it in church. wl said that as time pass, the partners expectation of each other grows and that's how quarrels come about. well, i guess the giving part becomes less and the expectation grows. and it is not that they love each other less but they kinda lost sight of giving which is actually part of showing love and in the end..misunderstanding comes about and arguments..so please let us not lose sight of that. for it is important.

yup. so i've been running around aimlessly..and now,i'm feeling loss which took me by surprise but now that i've understand, i'm taking time to settle down my heart. i'm taking what's mine back. i'm taking back my right. the right to cherish.

i miss you. i do.

and the birthday bbq. i thank all of you who attended but it really wasn't as joyful and enjoyable as i'd imagine it would. i didn't..i didn't have time to enjoy it. and i'm feeling sorry for myself. but i really am touched by your efforts. thank you.

and some of you would say, 'that's too bad for you'.